growing up is a choice

there comes a time when one realizes that she has evolved. and i'm no longer this cute little girl despite what others would say about my height. ^.^ i've evolved into a tiny beautiful lady (ayaw na palag please). what this entry contains is something what a debutante would say but knowing that i'm a late bloomer, it's about time that i say something like this.

i've been thought of as a twelve or thirteen year old by both types of people; the ones who know me well and by those who hardly know me. it's because of the height they say. but as they expound on it, they reveal other facts about me. with my tiny voice, expressions, and actions, it's not difficult to mistake me for a very young girl who's just clueless about the world. this influences how they treat me and as always, they call me the baby.

but for almost a year now, i surrounded myself with people who have just really grown up and have taught me a thing or two about growing up. sure, they're men and unlike the other men in my life, i get the feeling that they actually want me to grow up and not be the 'annoying' baby they love to make fun of.

growing up is a choice and i've began to grow up with these guys. they made me see that i should really leave behind the cuteness and just embrace the beauty of being a twenty year old. nyahaha. in many ways, i owe you for many things and you should know that i'm thankful.

i'm turning the page now, you'll begin to see a new me. a grown-up chin. hehehe

it's been a year, i hardly noticed.

today, i want to come up with an entry that would talk about the difference between last year me and this year me. but seeing that my vanity has not struck me since i got my hair cut, i thought about making a collage of the pictures i had that took place after those big bad events in my life. if you'll click the image above (for enlargement), you will see that i am now very happy.

it's true that some things just don't last forever. boys and even some people you would call your friends. the first one was a mistake i didn't think i'd commit. percy said i was pressured to have done such a thing. hehe...then, i didn't think i was. now, i think it is all about that. the second one, i just didn't think i'd be let go off because the girlfriend said so. i didn't think that it would be so easy for him to do after building the friendship. unlike mr. bluedig, i got defended from his jealous girlfriend. =)

i know i'm close to the boys but it's not because i flirt with them. i just find it easy to be with them because i was a soccer player in high school and there weren't many girls in the team. the boys would treat us like we're one of them and the girls, including myself never really cared about make-up or having the latest trend in our clothes. plus, i'm the youngest girl in my family. and with the number of uncles and kuyas i have, no one should really be surprised. hehe, i'm surrounded with men in school and at home.
and these guys i have are the reason why i'm single. yes, i'd blame it on all of them. haha... it's because when a brave soul comes along, they would crush his spirit. to name a few, there's sylvester the cat and romeo. ^.^ there have been some who have passed their standards but later backed out because they couldn't handle all of them.
but now, i can't help but be glad for having them. you keep the jerks away. =) and you're responsible for who i am now; single and happy. and i know that you don't want me to remain single forever...you're just helping me find the right one and keeping me secured and happy whilst he tries to find me. haha...

as for my gal pals who consistenly tell me that i should learn how to put blush-on and put eye shadow even though it's just a normal school day, i appreciate you all too. hehe... because face it, guys can't really stick around for chismis. they want to tell you things but they find it hard to listen (haha, joke lang. pero 60/40 totoo!) hehe... and it's fun to go shopping with all of you. guys find it hard to allot time for it. plus, i need you when i'm dishing out the dirt on some girl who messes with me and mr. bluedig. haha. but seriously, i learn a lot from you girls. not just about make up and fashion but on relationships which i will have! hehe... you're the ones who would let me cry and just let me cry no matter what my reasons are. you'd laugh with me no matter how silly i'd get. and you're happy for me when you know that there's really something to be happy about.

i'm also thankful for my family who has kept their arms open for me, each time i mess up. sweet caroline will always be our song and 'hurting will always run off my shoulders each time i'm holding you."
it's really all because of you that i hardly noticed what today is. i almost forgot but when i remembered, i laughed at myself instead of being sad about it. i laughed and talked with you a lot today, yesterday, last week, last month, and since the day it all happened. tears? i forgot how they come because i always have a smile on now. =) it's been a year, i hardly noticed...thank you...and thank you Lord. =)

taking the zipline with champ of hale

it's obvious that this whole event was a memorable one. some even say that i can't get over the fact that we had champ with us during our island hopping and that i was seen on tv with a bunch of my other classmates. haha... the zipline experience was just really wonderful. i forgot about the weight i was carrying and just really found the moment to celebrate after getting through the semester without failing a subject.

i'm still a challenger at the moment since i'm still going through the second semester of the schoolyear but when i graduate in march, which i should...i would be a survivor from all the tough work given to us by our mind daunting professors. =)

what happened in school today

i must admit, i have been really excited for the second semester to start. i made all sorts of preparations for my last first day in school. it happened today and it was memorable, to my delight. i spent it with my friends; bam, jhong, fabz, kulot, and ryan. i also mingled a bit with arjen, rhea, kristil, ka-ye, and elvira. even aris enojo got a portion of my time, unexpectedly.

i love how the day went. however, there were just two things that didn't really make me smile.

first of all, my philo 106 teacher last sem who gave me such a hard time is again my teacher for this semester in the next philosophy subject. he remembers me of course and made me the beadle for the class. he remembered the others and congratulated us in a mocking sort of way for passing his previous subject. ulk!

second on the list is how i forgot...well, neglected to take care of the matter during the break. letting that happen crushed me a little today even though i hardly cared about it when we were all away with each other.
i spent little time with my classmates today. it must have been because it's the first day and we'd only see each other in class. there were long gaps between my classes because the teachers didn't utilize the entire period for introductions. i had fun with them a little before philo class started. lost them after that. but before strategic management began, i was hanging out with them in the middle lounge of the fourth floor of the finster buliding. while we were all together, one person said something to me that triggered a few laughs. i know i took it well coz it's true but hearing it from him made me want to crawl under a rock. ^.^

i remember clearly how i reacted towards what he said. i smiled and nodded. no words said. embarrassed.

what was said? and who said it?

"no offense ha, but you got fat." -andy

he came up with reasons for it and i just had an embarrassed smile on my face. and i nodded to everything that he said. while a few others snickered and made some comments towards what andy said. when he was done, he pinched my cheek.

-shrugs-

well, that's the thing about him. he's cruelly honest but he knows how not to make me feel bad about the things that he said.

i don't feel bad because he said that. i felt embarrassed for a while but it was because i really didn't work out during the break. i know i drank a lot of coca-cola and ate here and there with short gaps between each meal or snack that i took. maybe he did want to embarrass me a little because knowing how our relationship is, i shouldn't be a stranger to it and the same goes for him. haha...

now, thinking about it makes me want to laugh out loud. but there's no one with me right now and i'm scared to think of myself as a crazy girl. hehe... i just know that andy meant well with what he said. hehe... he's a good friend and i'm glad i met him. =)

new cut

when i was younger, i always liked having long hair. maybe because my mom has always kept my hair short. So, since my freshman year in college, i've maintained a long and straight cut for my hair. i trim it from time to time but people hardly notice it. last summer, before my bro's graduation i had it cut again but to my dismay, it really wasn't what i wanted it to be. hair would keep falling to my face and i had to wear a hairband everyday and i had to tie it in a pony too.
when it grew, i took it to the parlor for straightening., very much acknowledging my waves. but just the other day, i had it cut again. extremely short. big change, they say. but i actually love it. it's low maintenance and it makes me feel cool. don't feel like a boy. haha
i got a comment that it's similar to rihanna's cut. and so, suddenly i'm the good girl gone bad. ahha... the bad girl, i can't pull off...good, yeah...yeah.. oh well, -shrugs-i love my new rihanna hair cut. haha...

take a chance on me

i really love this scene and song from Mamma Mia. it must be because i'm single and have been so for a very long time. haha!

the lyrics make me smile. it's like saying;" hey dude...i'm just here." lol.
i'm not desperate or anything of that sort. i just like the song because i can relate much with it.
"i'm a lone wolf!" they both say. and i've said that for a number of times to some people. i guess that's why. haha...also, the personality of both the characters who are involved here are the type that attracts me. lol.

another disappointment, another heart ache?

it's true when they say that life's not perfect. sometimes, you get caught up with planning for events to be with people, hoping some good things would happen. but the day comes and several things are taken for granted or aren't given adequate value and sometimes, you are deemed as a disappointment to those people you planned the event for. it's sad.

lin expected much from frank. but frank already has a flower and there's no breaking them up. i can live with that. i can be both your friends. but what breaks my heart is knowing that i've been passed on, again. it's not my time yet, apparently. but lin's just sad about not having the right person when others have found theirs.

rj? he's there, and then he's not there. i'd rather be alone than be with him. i guess that's the attitude of mine that keeps me single. lol. times like this makes me want to try that zipline at kaputian again. hehe... i'm not emo, i'm just having one of those days that show how envious i am of my friends who have found their partners. some of them already see themselves married to their girlfriends and boyfriends while i still haven't moved forward to step two. lol.
my time will come. i just have to wait a little longer. or...be an old maid. hehehe...

with ma'am weng

i'm the small version of her, they say. and at first, i found it hard to believe it but after hanging out, texting, and seeing more pictures of me and ma'am weng de jesus, i found out that they're all right. even ma'am weng agrees to it. =) hehe...

ma'am weng gives me advice on love. and she is one of the persons who's in the position to give me some, seeing that she's happily married. she says that i should share a good friendship with whoever would be my partner in the future. but other than giving me love advice, she pairs me up with her favorite student who of course is clueless about it until i break it to him. why frankenstein?? haha... well, ma'am weng sees my friendship with the guy and she thinks we're both adorable with each other. haha...frank? adorable...rofl, lin-adorable indeed! haha...

ma'am weng is a mom to all, to my class especially. i think i see it more because i'm her beadle and i do things for her and for my class. well, she's a strong woman and having people say that i'm like her is a compliment i wouldn't want to be taken away.
bleh!

the zipline

okay, it really wasn't Champ that made the whole zipline experience unforgettable. haha... 'coz fishing me out of the water is different from going through the zipline itself. haha...

i jumped, and i screamed my heart out to forget my fears, and all my troubles! and if you think that's all there is to it, think again. hitting the water refreshes you entirely. it would make you want to do it again! hehe... and i'm glad i did it again.

many thought i'd chicken out. but i didn't. boo you all! haha... classmates, and friends, there's an adventurous side of me too, you know. hehehe... and so thenext time i visit samal, i'll do this again. i really enjoyed it... duh. =)

singing together; mon and chin

ramon and randiss, singing? together? who would have thought that it was possible? i seriously didn't think it was. but as i was looking through my photos, i saw this. =) haha...

the song was "i'll be over you" by toto. and if i remember correctly, that was my getting over ramon song. and he joined me on stage when this random song came on. at that time, i didn't have anything in my head but to have fun and sing. and i did! i just found it funny though when he started to sing the chorus because the lines there perfectly described me back then. and he was singing it.

i hate to give some meaning to it but i can't help it. with everything that's going on between us now and with everybody else, could ramon really be singing from his heart?
"It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you.
As soon as my heart stops breakin
Anticipating.
As soon as forever is through
Ill be over you."

and just when you thought that this was the highlight of the night. ramon and randiss singing one song...no, we sang two... and he took the lead in the other song.
"Ipagpatawad mo, Aah minahal kita agad..." (forgive me i loved you too fast...)
haha... i did say come what may to ramon and randiss, didn't i?? =)

ramon and randiss

if you know ramon and randiss, then you would have a smirk on your face when you see this picture and read this entry.

i'm a proud person, many know that and many have told me that. but this time, i'm going to swallow my pride and let the world know that this fella is my first great love no matter what a disaster it was or will continue to be. haha...

i still have negative thoughts about him and this pair that just can't be put together for all the right reasons. but sometimes, i just find myself defiant. Most of the time though, i'm resistant when presented with all the forces that tell me why we should be.lol...
No matter, i'm trying to be friends with him and sometimes, i do get the feeling that he wants to be friends too. come what may, i guess...for ramon and randiss... =)

island hopping with my classmates

i don't know what the game is called but i know it's a game for drunkards. haha... it's the first time i did it and it was nice. it's like one of those games in the casino when you roll a dice and if it lands on your chosen number, you win. but in this game, whatever number the dice lands on has a corresponding number on a shot glass and if you have that number, you have to drink up.
it was a fun game. i really did have a great time! =)
other than that, i tried the zipline where we also met Champ of Hale. he tried the zipline before us and we saw that it was a great dare and i dared myself to do it. i did it and it became one of the unforgettable things i've ever done! seriously, screaming my heart out was getting rid of all my troubles and then i had a great splash in the water to refresh my entirety. haha, it seems like an exaggeration but it's not and it did give me a great feeling. the first take is unforgettable and the second one takes you further. =)
i'll do that again sometime. hehe...

the mafia night

Last October 5 was when my class threw a Mafia Party. and as the person in charge for the whole event, seeing it happen in success really made me feel great. hehe...

The VIPs of the night were found at table one. VIPS because they're the ones who were really behind the whole night, running around; making sure that everything goes right.

much thanks to the following people for all the help they gave me for that night. =)

christian estepa- great hosting dude! you are the godfather! hehe

andy blodig- must you really kiss ass? joke. thanks too for your participation in the program, the seating arrangement; for the fun!

james morente- food!! it was great! good taste, man. haha...

hanna phillips- for helping me out with the sec stuff. thank you!

allan pada- i wasn't abusive of you. no i was not! hehe... but thank you for ushering, for the
names, the program in paper and a lot more. hehe...

issa roxas -for the help you've given to the logis team.

che grado- for being the little sweetie of the sec. you took my crown! joke. hehe

ramon jamora- for the music, for the program, for everything actually. haha...thanks for worrying for me. =)

joan pada- for the great work the logis team put out. much of the event wouldn't have been the way it was if it weren't for you. thanks much!

classmates- thank you for the laughter, for participating, for all the good times.

ma'am weng de jesus- ma'am weng! hehehe, thanks for the trust you've given me. i wouldn't have been able to do much of the work i've done if you weren't there to back me up.

sir godofredo eding - for attending our event even on such short notice. thank you!

the class of 4 MB is now the mafia family.
you hit one, we hit you back.
capite?

the advertising expo

i must admit, i was really disappointed with my class' advertising expo. for many reasons. and it was hurtful too with everything that we've spent on and everything that happened that day.
and on my part, day one was a little embarrassing for me because of andy just because of how he introduced me to his girlfriend. haha...i've recovered though. =) lol....

i still love advertising and i still want to have a career in that field. the whole experience is just something i'd love to forget about. or atleast, parts of it. haha, but then i would still love to thank my classmates and groupmates for their time and effort which they have contributed for the event. congratulations to the panadero team for bagging some awards. =) to my group, thank you for the smiles and the bullying that just broke the ice for many times...hahaha...
to my class, congratulations for a job well done. =)

the big boys

i really love this picture!
this was taken during my visit at the grade school and high school campus to shoot for my advertising video. these two big boys decided to take a break by reading in the grade school library. obviously, they're too big for the tables and chairs and the books they have just don't suit them... unless they want to learn about GMRC all over again. haha...
it's cute.
and this picture has been our classmates' source of laughter for many days now. lol.
well, i'll post more pics after our advertising expo on saturday. =)

panadero's defense for prodman

the german punk is wearing a barong. =) and so is allan. and with the rest of their team, they took on prodman with ease. lucky bastards!
hahaha...
joan is of course, very good looking.
prinsipe did his usual thing.
law, great jacket. hehehe.

well, when it's my turn...next week...i don't know how good i'll do since i belong to the last two groups who are all expected to be perfect at this whole thing. oh jeez, i just have to keep myself strong. =)

not enough

tanny took this shot and i just love it! we went to our grade school and our high school to take scenes for our infomercial and i saw a number of my past teachers there, a few memorable places like the soccer field, and the court in front of the grotto.
it was really fun since we were able to enter classes and take scenes of how several teachers conduct their classes. they greeted us, of course! but not in a way i expected them to. lol.
i used to greet strangers who came to class that way, along with my classmates of course!
standing up and saying; "good morning/good afternoon visitors!" haha...
well, memories came flooding to me again and i just smiled at it all especially when i saw the faces of those kids who wanted to smile and wave at the camera so much. one or two of them must have been like me. =)
well, it was nice and i'm having a warm feeling right now knowing that i had a great then and i'm having blast now. lol. i wish i can explain more my happiness. =)

peace dude

so okay, i do not want others to think that this blog of mine is dedicated to my one and only. hehehe...i just made those series of articles about the two of us because it was what i wanted to do then. =)
today, was at isla verde for my immersion in my theology class. dy should have been there but he wasn't able to come because he has a soccer tournament.
while i was there, i took some pictures of the place and of the people especially the kids, being this documenter that i am. =) the kids were very much fascinated with my camera that they did want to have their pictures taken with my cam. they'd come to me and ask me to take their pictures. there was this little dude however who stood behind me and i didn't know about it. he made this peace sign infront of my camera when i clicked on the button to capture this moment of james and christine interviewing Anna.
i couldn't get angry with the kid because he was being smiley all about it. plus, i was a visitor of the area, i didn't want trouble. but i did find it amusing that my camera fascinated the kids very much. so i just continued to take their pictures for their delight. i made them happy even for a little while. and it makes me wish that i can do something more for them. =)

treat me good

this song from the bachelor girl is on my mind. i love it for its lyrics because it just shows that any girl would only want to be treated good by any guy. =)

"Don't use me. Don't tease me. Don't hurt me. Don't mess with my head.
Don't flaunt me. Don't laugh at me. Talk about me. Or ignore what i said.
But you can treat me good Anytime you like. Show me some kindness if I'm lucky tonight. You can treat me good anytime at all."

it's good to know that with every guy pal that i have right now, they know how to treat me good. haha, let's just wait til i find a love that will treat me good for always. haha...

troubles

a few days ago, i just felt blue because of this friend troubles i'm having. i still have them but then, i forget sometimes because i get slapped once in a while by the hand of happiness. (i should say foot because he's a soccer player who has just gained weight.)
i must really be a friend for him because of everything that he does to me and for me...and yeah, to our classmates. i see them all and i wish that i have a picture of that time when he and don almost kissed. hahaha... thanks for pretending that you're gay guys. just don't do it very much because you both can be very convincing. hahaha...
and btw, this can work you know, but my big guy just doesn't think that it can. hahaha. thanks dude.

"ballack"

this is andy. and he's so macho isn't he?? haha...

we had this picture taken earlier this day at the new jersy studio. we were taking pictures of ourselves and of our classmates while waiting for our glam and grad pics to be taken.

after taking this shot, he says; " may masamang ballack!" haha...

well, between the two of us, it's like we always have a plot against each other coz we're just each other's friend and bully. haha...

but this i have to say (i say it on a serious note, ha) time with andy is never wasted. you'll never get bored, you'll never grow tired of his jokes and other antics. he'll treat you real good and genuinely special.

well, i should know. hehehe... =)

fly me to the sky

if you were the one in this picture, how would you have it?
would you rather be as thin as a stick
and have the balloons take you to the sky?
or would you rather have that same figure you have now
and just ask for more balloons? =)

i'd ask for more balloons.
i'd choose to have more balloons to take me to the sky than sacrifice and skip meals.
i'd choose to have more balloons to take me to the sky
to not waste any more time to get high. =)
i just want to go away to experience new things
and forget what i have on right now...
but i know i'll land back
but while i'm still standing on solid ground,
i'd just have to learn how to keep my smile
and have it on until i can be taken away. =)

we have a growing club

id
this is me with gali. and he's not one of my guy pals. haha. he's actually one of my gay friends who just loves to do all the crazy things in the world. bullying can be very crazy too. =)
we are the founders of a growing organization in school. if there's anyone who wants to join us, that person has to be pretty and cool like us. and yes, that person also has to dislike one guy who THINKS he knows it all.
lol, i don't want to sound like i'm jealous of that guy because i'm not. =) i've just had enough of sharing the same air with him but he apparently thinks differently. tsk, some guys can just be very delusional. haha...

the coolness just spreads

well, it's nothing new when i say that i have more guy pals than girls and that when one asks me to call my girls, that person has to mean; my boys. haha. no offense to my girl friends. i do get a long more with guys because of my background on boys. haha. but i do need my girls too! =)

i'm not flirtatious or anything like that and if anyone will ask me for a reason regarding that matter, i'd say that one reason would be my boys. =) -kasug-an ko-

this is me with allan pada. he's fantastic and he's one of those people who can prove that looks can be very deceiving. lol... he's actually a nice guy with a girlfriend whom he loves very much.
he's joan's older brother, another cool person i know.
and when we're put together for whatever reason, the coolness just spreads. =)

bleh! we're cool. haha

running free

on a visit to my grade school and high school, i was able to take this picture of a girl who was just running after being dismissed from class. it's the school fiesta and she's just running free! hehe...

going back to my high school and grade school after such a long time opened this box of memories. they make me smile but are those that i really do not want to think of 'cause they can get me into tears. but over all, it was really great.

i've come to know how i've grown up all these years and how i learned to look at things differently. i have also acted accordingly. haha...

i wish to go back to this place again and when i do, i wish to see the persons who made this place very memorable for me.i miss everyone. but we all have to do what we have to do. go to college, get a job... and then recall the times when we were all just running free. LOL.

fun was defined differently then. now, we can all go out and get some drinks. YES! =)

a smile

i have this habit of drawing on other people's skin. well, by other people, i mean my friends. that's the only reason why i can draw on their skin anyway.
this to the left is obet yu. i did this during our class when i got so bored with the class. well, he found it cute and had a butterfly drawn on his other arm.
hehe, this is fun. beware other classmates! lol.

best friends

kristel left back for canada two days ago. with that, i can't help look back on things that have gone by in my life with or without her by my side.
i'm sad about things yet i find a smile on my face not because i'm crazy but because i really have found the beauty in our relationships and with what life has given us.
our friendship started in fifth grade when we became classmates and had the same crush on one guy *whom she won -haha!- . our friendship revolved around four other guys whom then, we both thought were dorks. amadeus who cried when he was elected as prince charming of the class. janus who always made sure that i knew i was fat. stefan who was bullied by everyone and was called a slug-eater because it sounds close to his last name. and francis, the chinito looking guy whom i along with everybody else just got along with so well.
it's a sad fact that all six of us have parted ways. all because we grew up and moved to places. well, except for me and janus. francis is in manila. amz is in ohio. stefan is in switzerland. kris is in ontario. all the memories are from long ago but when a part of us were reunited, it felt fantastic! like a wonderful feeling that goes beyond indulging yourself with chocolate bars. lol. heaven?
it's too bad that it didn't last long and that the next time we'll be meeting with each other is still an uncertain date. nonetheless, we're binded by this friendship and it allows us to look forward to tomorrow because we know that it'll be better for all of us. best friends always, right?

the comfort i find in coffee shops

i get a warm feeling each time i enter a coffee shop. and i think it's because i see an ambiance that does not discriminate. everyone is given a space where they can sit comfortably and talk. get some work done whether it's for business, for school, for catching up with friends, or for getting to know others a little better. it's an intimate place that's just perfect for anyone.
if you'll ask me, i'd never turn down a visit to a coffee shop.

and the best actor goes to...

i don't know what to say. he sets the camera and does not look at it like everything's a candid moment. LOL! he looks so tanga! haha... but even so, the best actor goes to BAM! =)

too late the hero naman oh!

too late the hero is a famous line of my family. i remember my mom telling me about it when my cousins arrived days after my lola turned a year older. they missed the big party that my lola said to them; "too late the hero!".

the line makes me laugh at the moment because i can just say it out loud to someone who used to catch my attention so often but not much was ever mirrored back.
to make things short, the tables have turned and i can just laugh out loud. (i know that's just mean!) i can also say that things are such a waste. and with that, some would say that i should just go back to yesterday. But i don't want to jump back to how i used to be or how things used to be. All because i've found better things and better persons in my life after i moved pass the "walking by rachel's" or "passing rikki's office" in the afternoon. Simply put, i'm happier now.
and after all i've been through, i can actually tell him what my lola told my cousins. "too late the hero naman, oh!" sayang...pero that's the way it is.

mr. tony emberda

This man on the left is my teacher for my Production Management; Mr. Tony Emberda. What is so special about him? One thing; he made me cry. (^.^) Well, I wasn't really going to cry. He just kept saying that I had tears in my eyes when there weren't any! But he kept going at it until some already appeared! Boohoo... And I'm not sure but I think I'm his first student who cried this early in the semester. Lol. Atleast I know that there'll be more tears to come and that I'm not going to be alone. (Bleh!)
So, yes. He has this reputation of making students cry. He's a terror teacher, they say! But in my case, I cried not because I failed on a task that he asked me to do. My group's task was just to have an LCD projector and a laptop prepared in class for his lecture. It's simple and there shouldn't be a problem with it. Right? Wrong. Our slot was taken by everyone and there wasn't any projector available for us. we thought about getting a room from the CS Division since their rooms already have everything (which is unfair!!!). We thought about renting from the Nursing Division, the Humanities, and every other division in class. Then, panic just came after us. Jesper and I even talked to him about it but all he said was; "Be resourceful!" and his distinct laugh followed.
It was at the last minute when we were able to borrow an LCD projector from my groupmate's office. We weren't sure at first if we could borrow it since the person-in-charge wasn't around or couldn't be contacted until the last minute as well. And so I cried because my group and I succeeded on the challenge posted before us. It seems odd to cry about it but I was just so worried and stressed with all the texting (yes, it's stressful too especially when you don't get replies!!haha), the running, the arguing, the asking around that led to nowhere. I was just relieved to have something ready when Mr. Tony came to class and I felt even better when he dismissed the class that early. So, while cleaning up he talked to me and my groupmates about the challenge and how similar it can be with life; how sometimes there's nothing left to do but pray and cry. But he also said that something can always be done when one is pushed to the limits. So, when it comes to all the talks about him being a terror teacher, I would have to say that I don't see him that way. He makes you do all sorts of things just to get by but in the end, you'll see that you had fun with it and you'll realize that you've actually become better at one or several things just because he makes you do much. And so, I'm glad that he's my teacher. I'd never get bored and I'm always motivated to be better. =)

Thanks Sir Tony! haha...

a cup in hand

i should have posted this before my night out with kris since this took place first. =)
last thursday, i was having so much fun with my groupmates in my advertising class. and i'm aware that one guy in my group is someone i have __ feelings for (haha, figure it out!). after all the arguments and angry looks, we actually had our time together with others without biting each other's head off. though i didn't want to spend the rest of my advertising time with them (our teacher wasn't around), i left but i was still early for my entrepreneurship class which came after. so i still had time to talk to my other classmates.
i talked to them about coffee at the same time thinking of my love for it and it gave them the desire to have some to. i didn't know where that guy was while i was talking to them but soon after entrep class started, he came to me handed me a cup of coffee which my classmates and close friends noticed. they snickered, laughed at it because they know all the issues surrounding us.
and so here i am in a picture which jeff took. i look hilarious since i was shocked. i really didn't see it coming. everyone who saw it has gathered their own thoughts about it. with my flat "oh" and "thanks" i just have to say that looking back it makes me say that i'm actually feeling great now that we've passed that stage of ignoring each other for whatever reason we have.
and maybe, i'll hold more cups in my hand in the future. we'll sit, we'll talk, we'll mix. one moment. haha. =)

first night out

and just when you thought that i'm your all around good girl -which i am, by the way.haha- i just got home from a night out with my best friend whom i happen to have not seen for over four years. =)

today is our first night out. as twenty year olds, this is precious since we were too young to do this the last time we were together and we knew fake i.d.s wouldn't help us in any way at all. =)

blue margaritas anyone? hehe...

a soccer player no more

last night, i went through some of my stuff and was glad to find some things which i have hidden for quite some time now. i took them out because i wanted to share them. i took them out because i wanted to know if i could use them again. i took them out alright and i found the answer to my unspoken questions.
i'm not a soccer player anymore. i still want to play sports and i still hang-around a lot of guys but much has changed since i was running around a field with teammates whom i treasured and loved through the years. and what has changed is significant for me. i'm not that person anymore.
i still kick ass when needed but i'm with better company now and i can say that i'm a better person too.

i don't think that it's still a surprise that i have friends from the team whom i've lost and who have lost me as well. you hurt me real bad but i've risen from it all and found all that i have right now. some friends and lovers do come and go but the bunch i'm with, i'm certain will stay with me forever.

smashville fun

i didn't think i'd do it. i didn't think i'd survive. but i did. cheers to me. haha.
two days ago, i accepted an invitation to play badminton with the boys of the kuri club.
lol. kulot asked me to come and i said i would but i'd be bringing my gal pal fabz with me.
she came and we played all together. it was smashville fun. haha.

anyway, i'm so glad i came and played with everyone there. i'm glad to be receiving
all the invitations of playing with them again. although it felt awkward after finding out
that the other guys didn't know we were coming; i found out about it through shans. but that
feeling's gone now. :p, thanks guys; for making things okay...

i'd play again although i'm quite certain that i'm not gonna be such
a tough match for any of you. right? lol. pang cool down lang nga, as i've been
repeating. haha. but thanks. you've made me smile more.

it feels so great because for a moment there, i felt something i haven't felt in a long time.
back in the days when i was playing soccer in high school, i had a team; a bunch of friends
who'll help tackle the enemy, whoever, whatever it was. and you guys made me feel like
i'm part of a team again. it feels good to be playing again and i am really looking forward to
my next games with you. sometimes, the foundation of a good friendship could be found in sports
and i hope it could be the foundation of ours.

thanks everyone.

-from an old blog i used to run. Thursday, October 25, 2007

tomorrow brings a smile.

i grabbed this picture from this guy's friendster account with the intention of posting it here on my blog. i know him, we were friends although some would say things a little differently.
i met him in school when i was a college freshie. he's older than me for a few years and we had a lot of fun together. he's not the shy type of guy which is why i really had fun with him. but just so we're clear, it was the clean, good, kind of fun! =)
you don't see us together nowadays and i have to admit that it's my fault. i said goodbye to this guy in the most inappropriate way; i told him that i had moved and i did it through text. for some really, that would be a familiar line.

i am making this entry just to let everyone know that some things may end really badly but a time comes when you get to look back and smile at everything that has happened. there's a reason why it ended and there's a reason for you to look forward to what tomorrow brings.
i'm happy looking back at the times i had with this fella but i'm happier knowing the fact that i am where i am and he is where he is.
i do know that in the beginning, you can be very doubtful about the smile which tomorrow will bring. an advice; give tomorrow some help, make it happen. smile. =)

someone

for a about a year now, i've met someone who became special to me in a lot of ways. he's someone who listens to me, laughs with me in every moment of my life.
he's one of those persons who, when you're together or apart lets you know in ways, that you're special to him and to everybody else.
he can make fun of you a lot but then it's never for a negative cause.
there aren't much like him and that is why i appreciate him with my whole heart. =)

chinny with kuri

these guys are guys i'm truly thankful for having. although they are just a portion of the kuri gang that i've come to know, these guys are the best kuri guys around. hehe, and i mean that as a ka-barkada. thank you for sharing moments with me that got me twisted and became able to see the pretty light again. =) i thought i'd lose you guys the moment disaster struck but then, it all goes to show that the true friends will always be hanging around.
i'm thankful to all of you for the laugher and the company you have given me all these time. you guys just really crack me up with everything that you do. and again, thanks for having been there for me and for the plans of being there for me still. i'm here for any of you too! =) love much for all

the kabangangs or the kabz

i was just looking through my picture collection when i saw this picture to the left side of this article. i smiled when i saw it because it reminded me of the first time the kabz ever got together. this photo was taken a about a year ago and now we're about to start a new school year and will be meeting new people and will be having new friends. =)
i fell inlove with the kabz because they're fun and crazy but all in a good way. with the new school year ahead of us, i wouldn't really be surprised if this group grew because we're just that cool. hehe, we welcome you to this gang; the kabagang!

The Probinsya Restaurant

Probinsya is my favorite restaurant in the city. it's a very cozy restaurant but the best part about it is that it's a buffet and it's within a student's budget. haha, i am a lover of great food!

i always come here, early on sunday mornings with my family to eat breakfast, right after church. it happens a lot especially when my brother is around since we hardly see him and a sunday morning is a great time to bond---trust me! with great food, it really is.

but a few months ago, i thought i'd never come back to this place. it was his birthday and he told me to come to meet his other friends, and to meet his parents which he said was about time. it was something i looked forward and dreaded to happen because it was a first for us. it felt like taking a big step that meant a lot for us both. but disaster struck me that day and he didn't even care or took notice of the fact that i was dying as i was sitting on my seat.

his friends paid no attention to me, his parents didn't know who i am and words were thrown at me. i don't mean that i should have been treated as a princess there but at that time, i think i should have been given atleast an ounce of special treatment. but i didn't get it because he, along with his friends and parents were caught up with his ex-girlfriend whom he never told me was showing up.

the embarrassment i felt made me want to run, and i did. he didn't even explain things to me. he left me with my thoughts with great belief in them. he didn't speak when i told him all about it, i must have said the truth. and right after this, we forgot about each other.

but now, i know that i'll always come back to probinsya even with the horrible experience i had at the place. look at me in that picture, that's me with my aunts, my uncles, my parents, and my cousin jill. we're having breakfast at probinsya right after picking my relatives up from the airport. and i thought it was going to be hard but all i can really think about is the great food and service the restaurant serves. =)

and now, i know more good times will come...in my life and during the times i will be at probinsya. hehe...

-piggy's not so piggy!

chinny's back. =)

i got over it.

a few months ago, i would not have been able to genuinely smile at you. i am not appreciative of anything that you did during and before that time because you said so much but did so little with no meaning at all. not being good at it is not an excuse because i didn't even see you try. i listened to you and i listened too much; i think that was what i did so wrong that it resulted into me loving you. though love is not a bad thing, it felt really wrong because it ate me up. but i'm really glad that i've gone out of it and i found my smiles again. now, everything before me is in my hands, and everything before me is what i want. i found a greater love with my family and with my friends, i should have always known that. it's a fact that they don't want to see me with someone whose love can't compare to theirs; they were glad to see you go. and though i wasn't happy about it when we parted, right now i can only smile that we did. i'm happy now, and i wish that you are too. i may still have things to say but it's only because we weren't able to get the right opportunities to say everything we wanted to say. i won't say your name because it doesn't need to be mentioned,so you don't have to worry about what others could say. i'm only doing this to be really able to turn the page so that when tomorrow comes, i'll say that i've moved passed it and everyone who hears me say it will believe me. i do not intend to hurt you if that is still possible, this is entirely for me.

my last summer

i think it was a great thing to have my other relatives come and visit us for the summer because it's the last summer i'm getting as a college student. ha! so confident that by next year, i'll graduate. hehe...it's a great thing because i was able to have fun, i was able to enjoy my last summer as a student because the next summers of my life will be spent in an office of a company i do not own but later in my life, i'll be spending it an office in a company that i do own.
lol, i sound like i have it all figured out. and it looks like i am dumping my masters in business. but that's not a final plan yet. i just want to put it off for awhile and figure things out. i still do want to write, and use that as a living. but times are hard and living on a writer's paycheck won't do and i'll hear all about it from my parents...i just hope that my new york trip next year will help me a lot.
haha, if i graduate, i'm definitely booking that flight. :)
for now, whilst i enjoy the remaining days of my summer, i am trying to earn some extra bucks through blogging. haha... google shall punish me for that but i hope not. =) hehe, if you can, drop by the cookie jar of entertainment, please do and help me out. :)

my sudden disinterest in social sites

oh no, don't get me wrong. i have a friendster account and i have a multiply account but i just don't see myself managing my accounts very much nowadays. well, i know some keep their accounts to make keeping in touch with friends a lot easier but keeping in touch, we can do at YM or through sending emails. but yes, we don't get to show off pictures and get comments that get posted on our profiles. points to social networks there.
i just have a sudden disinterest in social sites because i've found my energy all directed to blogging. i keep other blogs too, see my side bar for that. i just think that blogging is making me spend my time more practically. airing out my thoughts into the net and having every person able to read them makes me feel light. though we can do those in blogs present in social sites like friendster and multiply, i just think it's better to have a real blog spot online. =) well, what more can i say? i heart blogging...

a writer

my interest in writing began when i was in fifth grade. it was really out of annoyance from a friend who bragged about her write-ups which were, in my honest opinion, weren't good. (^.^) i wrote with so much confidence and i believed that i'm better than her. so when my compositions started to pile up, i showed them to her with a bragging face.
the first publication i ever became a part of was the Magis. My english teacher wanted me to be a part of it and i wanted to be a part of it. Then, i had my articles printed in the Images and the Blue Knight when i was in high school. I was convinced that i would be taking Mass Communications in college or Journalism in a school in Manila.
But i walked away from art and entered business. i did that because of the demands in my family. i did that to become more competitive in the present time. i did that for the money. but even so, i've always been convinced that being a business student can't stop me from doing what i love best. i became Managing Editor of Fugue and i am very proud to know what the staff and the whole Editorial Board had come up with. but because business matters caught up with me and my school work became heavy, i had to leave writing for awhile.
and for a while there, i thought i'd never write again. i thought that i'd be facing business cases, analyzing, making SWOTS, doing research, and other business related duties. but then, my attention has just been called and a unanimous decision has been made, i am now the Editor of the Features department of The Business Brief and that i have been invited to join the Philippine Press Institute Convention in Manila on May 27-30.
i hardly have the words to express my happiness towards this! =)

the desire to travel

i love to travel though it's quite ironic for me to say that because i haven't gone to many places and i haven't seen many sites. but i do love the ideas of me visiting a new city or a country even just to enjoy the sites, meet the locals, enjoy a different dish, and take photos of myself with my family or with my friends...and yes, in time, with a very special someone. =)
recently, my parents visited singapore and they loved the place just like the many places they've seen and i'm jealous. lol.
but then, i know i'll make it happen, that someday, it's me who will be boarding a plane with anyone who can come with me or anyone who wants me to come with them, to see places i haven't seen; to enjoy my time like i've enjoyed it before. to be able to say; "this is the life!".

with chug

it's funny how sometimes, i get comments on how my brother and i look like we're in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. haha, i'd like to say he looks young for his age and not something else. :)
hehe...in this picture, it seems like we're in a perfect relationship as siblings but we do argue on big and small things too. and in those times, i swear, we could just bite each other's head off! :) but then again, it's a good thing that we share more good times together like this one in the picture.
we're just a little less than perfect. :)

the cadiogan farm

this picture was taken in the mango farm of the cadiogans in mindanao. in this picture, you can see few of the cadiogans who were able to go to davao city last april and see how the mango farm is doing. by the looks of everyone's smiles in the picture, it seems like it's doing well.
let's just wait for the mango season to be able to taste these mangoes! :)

from randiss cadiogan

just a copy and paste thing to do for today. i feel lazy. but i think this entry is quite helpful for newbies in blogging such as myself. hehehe.. this is from randiss cadiogan

yes, definitely! blogging has become very popular now! :) i learned about it from my friends in the i.t. division. man! they're making big bucks and i wish my earnings could compare to them. hehe... there are many sites out there that pay for reviews and the best agents i know so far are smorty and sponsored reviews. i believe that they are the best since those are the sponsoring sites i hear the most from my friends. hehehe... so, i suggest to all the new bloggers out there who want to start earning through making reviews about products and sites is to visit these two agents. :) who knows, you could probably start earning more than you think you could. :) hehe...


good luck to everyone! especially to chinny cadiogan who is really into this! :)

what's that for? the wishing well at eden-our wishes!

this is the wishing well we saw while having our tour at eden nature park. too bad it rained and not everybody was able to get out of the err, little jeep. here i am with just a portion of the family (my brother took the shot.) and in this picture, you can see that my cousin chat and my auntie amie are trying to be like jasmine trias in american idol. lol. just kidding. while we were at the wishing well, we of course dropped some coins and made our own wishes. some were said aloud, some were kept to ourselves. it may seem silly to some people that we'd still be dropping coins and making wishes on wishing wells at this age. but, we did that for the fun of it and if our wishes do come true, then YEAH! hehehe... a few of the wishes that were said aloud were "to pass the bar exam" -by auntie aida and my kuya chug, "a boyfriend for chinny" by my mom. "to visit davao city again." -by auntie amie.
well...those coming true isn't a long a shot! :)