randiss is looking for a job. ^^

i only have a few weeks left til graduation and here i am, looking through websites and passing out my applications and resumes to every company i'm interested to be a part of. i hope i'd get a job soon, even one that's just part time like teaching english to koreans. it's definitely temporary. i just want to feel how it's like to make my own money and not ask my folks for anything anymore. although i know that's not going to happen in an instant. hehehe...

graduation is coming soon. it's hard to believe that i'm almost done. and i can't help look back to all the things i've gone through in school, with my family, and with my friends. most of my friends are doing the same thing. and most of us are laughing at ourselves each time we think about what lies ahead. it's scary, true. but sometimes, we think that we're not ready for it or that we're too young. that's why we just laugh it off. but on most times, we just embrace things and accept the fact that we're about to reach the end of the line. hahay...

i just know that there are people from college whom i'm certain to keep with me for the rest of my life. these are friendships i don't want to let go of, no matter how difficult it can be for us sometimes. haha... i love you guys! =)

PSP

i've had bad days before. and yesterday was just one of them
it came at such a wrong time because on the sixth of february, i needed to be charming. i planned on going on a job fair with my classmates and at the same time, participate in the trade fair at the gaisano mall. i needed my charm to get hired and to earn cash for the hard work i've given out in coming up with an inventory for my group. but i didn't have it. i let my groupmates do the selling and i just filed my phil health and sss applications instead of passing out resumes and signing up for interviews for various companies.

but i got to be thankful for some things during that day too. there was kuya germs, kuya pada, hamlet, and james to cheer me up. they made fun of me too, that should be a given. haha. and it actually worked. i felt special in some ways and what they did really lift my spirits especially because of andy. and get a clue, the psp has a to to do with it. =)
the one with the crumpled face lost and couldn't believe it. haha, loser much. =)

growing up is a choice

there comes a time when one realizes that she has evolved. and i'm no longer this cute little girl despite what others would say about my height. ^.^ i've evolved into a tiny beautiful lady (ayaw na palag please). what this entry contains is something what a debutante would say but knowing that i'm a late bloomer, it's about time that i say something like this.

i've been thought of as a twelve or thirteen year old by both types of people; the ones who know me well and by those who hardly know me. it's because of the height they say. but as they expound on it, they reveal other facts about me. with my tiny voice, expressions, and actions, it's not difficult to mistake me for a very young girl who's just clueless about the world. this influences how they treat me and as always, they call me the baby.

but for almost a year now, i surrounded myself with people who have just really grown up and have taught me a thing or two about growing up. sure, they're men and unlike the other men in my life, i get the feeling that they actually want me to grow up and not be the 'annoying' baby they love to make fun of.

growing up is a choice and i've began to grow up with these guys. they made me see that i should really leave behind the cuteness and just embrace the beauty of being a twenty year old. nyahaha. in many ways, i owe you for many things and you should know that i'm thankful.

i'm turning the page now, you'll begin to see a new me. a grown-up chin. hehehe

it's been a year, i hardly noticed.

today, i want to come up with an entry that would talk about the difference between last year me and this year me. but seeing that my vanity has not struck me since i got my hair cut, i thought about making a collage of the pictures i had that took place after those big bad events in my life. if you'll click the image above (for enlargement), you will see that i am now very happy.

it's true that some things just don't last forever. boys and even some people you would call your friends. the first one was a mistake i didn't think i'd commit. percy said i was pressured to have done such a thing. hehe...then, i didn't think i was. now, i think it is all about that. the second one, i just didn't think i'd be let go off because the girlfriend said so. i didn't think that it would be so easy for him to do after building the friendship. unlike mr. bluedig, i got defended from his jealous girlfriend. =)

i know i'm close to the boys but it's not because i flirt with them. i just find it easy to be with them because i was a soccer player in high school and there weren't many girls in the team. the boys would treat us like we're one of them and the girls, including myself never really cared about make-up or having the latest trend in our clothes. plus, i'm the youngest girl in my family. and with the number of uncles and kuyas i have, no one should really be surprised. hehe, i'm surrounded with men in school and at home.
and these guys i have are the reason why i'm single. yes, i'd blame it on all of them. haha... it's because when a brave soul comes along, they would crush his spirit. to name a few, there's sylvester the cat and romeo. ^.^ there have been some who have passed their standards but later backed out because they couldn't handle all of them.
but now, i can't help but be glad for having them. you keep the jerks away. =) and you're responsible for who i am now; single and happy. and i know that you don't want me to remain single forever...you're just helping me find the right one and keeping me secured and happy whilst he tries to find me. haha...

as for my gal pals who consistenly tell me that i should learn how to put blush-on and put eye shadow even though it's just a normal school day, i appreciate you all too. hehe... because face it, guys can't really stick around for chismis. they want to tell you things but they find it hard to listen (haha, joke lang. pero 60/40 totoo!) hehe... and it's fun to go shopping with all of you. guys find it hard to allot time for it. plus, i need you when i'm dishing out the dirt on some girl who messes with me and mr. bluedig. haha. but seriously, i learn a lot from you girls. not just about make up and fashion but on relationships which i will have! hehe... you're the ones who would let me cry and just let me cry no matter what my reasons are. you'd laugh with me no matter how silly i'd get. and you're happy for me when you know that there's really something to be happy about.

i'm also thankful for my family who has kept their arms open for me, each time i mess up. sweet caroline will always be our song and 'hurting will always run off my shoulders each time i'm holding you."
it's really all because of you that i hardly noticed what today is. i almost forgot but when i remembered, i laughed at myself instead of being sad about it. i laughed and talked with you a lot today, yesterday, last week, last month, and since the day it all happened. tears? i forgot how they come because i always have a smile on now. =) it's been a year, i hardly noticed...thank you...and thank you Lord. =)

taking the zipline with champ of hale

it's obvious that this whole event was a memorable one. some even say that i can't get over the fact that we had champ with us during our island hopping and that i was seen on tv with a bunch of my other classmates. haha... the zipline experience was just really wonderful. i forgot about the weight i was carrying and just really found the moment to celebrate after getting through the semester without failing a subject.

i'm still a challenger at the moment since i'm still going through the second semester of the schoolyear but when i graduate in march, which i should...i would be a survivor from all the tough work given to us by our mind daunting professors. =)